Don’t Do What Works, Do What Makes Sense

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Practically broke and wading the waters of rising credit card debt, I headed towards Washington, D.C. to gain a little more perspective on my (possible) future as a social justice maverick who uses artwork as an advocacy tool.

The Rayburn foyer, where our exhibit is being displayed, has hideous carpet.

Side Note: I wonder if all government buildings in D.C. have such scary looking carpet.

Besides thinking about the unfortunate carpet, I wonder about the 3 hours  it will take to set up the Congo/Women exhibit. It ends up lasting well into 12 am, despite 12 volunteers and an energetic 3 year old (L’s son).

When we are done, my colleague W and I head to our hotel. Out of nowhere, I get an immediate gush of smallness. Everything suddenly feels so small. I feel absolutely tiny…right now. If I get any smaller, I fear I might disappear.

Tomorrow morning, W and I have a meeting with an NGO  to pitch a partnership with our Human Trafficking project.  During the meeting, they don’t ask many questions. Yet, it doesn’t stop them from wanting to snatch our marketing materials. I feel like the bad guy when I tell them they can’t keep them.

W is nicer than I am about that kind of stuff – she offers to send a digital copy.

W always thinks of the nicer stuff to say. I’m a little too forward and direct with people sometimes.

Once finished, after handshakes and goodbyes, we cab over to the Rayburn. We have to hang around for several hours because our event doesn’t end until 7 pm that night (we arrive shortly after 12 pm). Afterwards, we have to break down the installation.

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Our guest speakers arrive and the program begins. When I hear Stephen Lewis speak about his experience with Africa, my gush of smallness evaporates.

Nothing is out of place.

What I’m doing makes sense.

No ridiculousness. No second guessing.

I think that can be rare for people. When you’ve been out of work for as long as I have, the idea of a life’s purpose becomes muted. Within the tapestry of insecurity, second guessing almost becomes a part of your daily language.

In short, there are a lot of things you can do while you have a job that don’t make sense. You may think they are unnecessary, a waste of time or even beneath you. Yet, when don’t have a job; there is very little excuse to do things that don’t make sense to you.

That’s the core of good, stimulating and worthwhile growth. The stuff that makes sense. Stick to the continuities that are logical for you before you become part of doing something (for a paycheck) that doesn’t make sense.

Do what makes sense to you no matter how out of whack it may initially seem (like going to D.C. with very little money to help set up a one-night exhibit in a government building that has hideous carpet).

This is not about being reckless.

It’s about taking steps towards the most fulfilling risks and reaping their rewards.